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Try and keep your head up to the sky.

*sighs* It's been an ungodly long month. I think I may need to get my anti-depressants upped. They help a lot, but there are still remnants left. Mostly at night when TJ is in bed, and I can't think of anything to k…
Double your pleasure, double your fun...

Alrighty! I decided that I want to do something a little different this post! I'm going to run a few polls! So here are the questions: "How many of you know what purpura is?" "When you purge, what comes up f…
You keep me without chains...

Why hello! Long time no talk, xanga peoples! Yeah, okay, I'm a little hyper today for some reason. It's almost 6pm, and I just got out of bed. A LOT has happened in the past two weeks. First of all, the kids are now…
Beauty in the breakdown...

Yeah... I got my lip pierced on the 11th. I quite like it. However, I hate the mouthwash. My tongue is tender and numb and I can't taste much of anything. That's both a good thing and a bad thing. It makes fasting m…
Problem is "diets" not a big enough word, I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view.

My fast is going magnificently. My weight is back in the 170s, my ketone levels are high, I haven't been dizzy that much, I'm not sorely tempted by food, and I'm not suspect by anyone. Granted, my grandma hasn't lef…
I don't know if you can hear me, or if you're even there...

Yeah... my grandma is making absolutely no effort to regain her strength. She rarely eats, and when she does she only eats one meal a day, and it's almost always something so small it makes me think of Marya Hornbac…
I am the one hiding under your bed, teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red.

Yeah, I don't really have much to say, I just felt like doing an entry for the sake of something to do. Happy Halloween, everyone! And to counteract the "treats" being handed out, I've added my own treat. Extra…
Yep. Today sucks. Nyssa is home with impantigo (sp?), and I need to do laundry, dishes, and other housework. And if Nyssa isn't cleared up by Saturday, she has to stay home. Which means I may not get to go to a movi…
You'll never feel the heat of this soul, my fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown to you.

*cackles evilly* I have antidepressants. I was on placebos the first week, but when I popped the capsule open this time, there was an actual pill inside of it. I looked it up online, and it's the Lexapro. And I did…
Shattered self confidence falls to the floor, eyes like a tempest, can't look anymore.

My throat hurts like a bitch. I went to the store earlier to get some stuff for the kids, and gave in to an impulse buy... so I now have a box of Hostess Chocolate Cupcakes hiding in my purse. What does that have to…